so eleanor and cortney are over and we r soooo hyper blah blah blah

pleeeeease can i??!!!

i had the best day today. my grandma took me to a huge art store and bought me watercolor paints, brushes, a pallet, and lots of watercolor paper! it was the best. we talked to this rlly pretty girl named hannah (wink wink) that knew like everything about art! she also looked like eleanor!!!!!! hahahaha. then i went to my grandmas house and had swiss chalet takeout while we watched a movie. slumdog millionare! awesome! then she gave me some....in juliana's words....hooker gloves

but they are rlly pretty and they r leather with flowers. oh and mum? i spent 54.99 on a present for nate. :D so there goes my money. i am super hyper cuz my kindness is making everyone else happy! oh and mum? Aunt marci LOVED her present that we picked out. as soon as you read this you have to call me!! we have three questions for you.

1. how long can i stay here?

2. how much will it cost to change my ticket?

3. can i be homeschooled?

i remind you that auntie is a certified teacher and can teach me math english home ec health and science. denise can be my gym teacher. grandma can be my art teacher. and i can be enployed as their nanny!

also i will prolly only need two boxed shipped here

denise needs me

aunt marci needs me

lexi needs me

we took a vote and its unanimous in favor

see? aunt marci can even teach me democracy!

hoping you will consider it

~Diamond Rose~

ok so last night i slept in the basement and besides me being a little scared of the dark i was fine to go down there but when i was in my room i locked the door, not knowing that the thing i was scared of was already inside. so i watched half a movie and got tired so i turned it off but left the light on. then i fell asleep. my monster entered my mind. in this dream i was at school. my whole history class was there and for some reason Mr. johns (my history teacher) was teaching science. idk what we were learning but he had two guys that i didn't know lying down on table. one was named cameron. they were both knocked out with that gas u get when u have surgery. then my kinda friend whitni cut open cameron's stomach and painfully slowly put milk and insects inside him. some other dude was putting the same thing only with the milk and bugs in a sealed plastic bag into the other guy. then my mind fast forwarded and some nurse was yelling and crying and screaming that cameron was dying and dead and that we killed him and it was horrifying. she said she cud save the other guy b/c it was only in plastic bags. then i got the awful image of what poisonous bugs do do you from the inside. idk why but it was all kinda blurry. i woke up then. inside the light was a bug. lets just say my monster had my mind for the rest of the night, even tho im sure i didnt sleep any more.

lovingly terrified,

~Diamond Rose~

odd things

several things happened today that haven't happened in a while. i got a splinter in the bottom of my foot. i was outside. yesterday i found a way to climb over the fence that holds me here but i didn't go b/c their was no way back in. but a few min ago i found a secret gate that i can crawl through to get back in. WOOOO! then the splinter happened and i had to come back in. the only problem is the gate is under the kitchen window so i couldn't try it out last night.(my aunt was watching me) its not that i don't love it here. i really do! but sometimes i have a very demanding urge to escape (thats why we slept outside on my birthday eleanor and squirly)

another thing that happened was i ate parogies!!! they r really yummy. also i earned 70 $ in two days for babysitting and baby's late night feeding. tehehe.

~Diamond Rose~

Mary Chapin Carpenter - 10.000 Miles - Fly Away Home

not depressed just deeply unhappy

i am having the worst best day ever. slept till 11 cuz i stayed up reading my library book. got to draw at my grammas for hours and watched her make homemade pizza which i eated. them came home and played barbies with my cousin denise. and now i get 25 dollars for doing my fav thing ever! staying up till 3 reading! (i get paid cuz at three i feed my aunts baby so she doesnt have to get up) but now im crying. i think i miss my mom. watched fly away home at my g-mas amd cryed while walter stared at me (only a little). walter is my grandmas husband but not my granddad i also got another book from the library. the sound of butterflys. the title, cover pic, and authors name called me. the pic is a beautiful blue butterfly and the authors name is racheal. not how i spell my middle name but still. i also got 10 dollars for playing with denise. my aunt was at a bible study. love you mommy. i will cry and cuddle my baby cuz thats what i love.

scary things

your know what really scares me? things i dont/didnt want to know. like me flying on a plane from alberta canada to indiana usa. terrifying! also me walking down a dark street by myself in a bad neighbor hood carrying 1000 $. also me eating marshmellows my whole life and now i fing out the r made from cow hoofs! and jello and pudding too! yeah ikr! and now here i am. alone. in canada. without my mother for moral support. teenagers r just like babys, the only want to leave if their mother stays in the same place. my mother is a moving target. oh and did you know that pinatas promote violence? yeah we all just thot about the candy but the next thing you know your hitting your brother with a bat.

~Diamond Rose~