not depressed just deeply unhappy

i am having the worst best day ever. slept till 11 cuz i stayed up reading my library book. got to draw at my grammas for hours and watched her make homemade pizza which i eated. them came home and played barbies with my cousin denise. and now i get 25 dollars for doing my fav thing ever! staying up till 3 reading! (i get paid cuz at three i feed my aunts baby so she doesnt have to get up) but now im crying. i think i miss my mom. watched fly away home at my g-mas amd cryed while walter stared at me (only a little). walter is my grandmas husband but not my granddad i also got another book from the library. the sound of butterflys. the title, cover pic, and authors name called me. the pic is a beautiful blue butterfly and the authors name is racheal. not how i spell my middle name but still. i also got 10 dollars for playing with denise. my aunt was at a bible study. love you mommy. i will cry and cuddle my baby cuz thats what i love.